Ashton Deroy Writes: Due to just incredible feedback & my willingness to execute this project. I will be turning this space into my medical marijuana blog, where my goal long term is to have it featured in partnership with Swan Whispers ASMR.
If we are just meeting. I am Ashton Deroy, gay bashing survivor, a victim of the affliction of PTSD & medical cannabis user. When I was 19 I was a victim of an attack which had me lead my 3 other men into a dumpster where I was trapped. It was not long but it could have been the end of my life had it not been for some friends looking out for me.
“I don’t want to be like this.” What do I mean when I say that? Well, I don’t want to have fits, stress out or cry for no reason. I think I sound insane when I describe it to people. In fact, I know I sound insane. When you talk about survivors… Talk about the girl at my work who when I told her I had PTSD she mentioned she was a breast cancer survivor. That surviving takes bravery!
What about my aunt? Surviving the attacks of a terrorist & cancer as well. That is bravery. I just continue to be loud & expressive in a world that has sometimes rejected me like trash. That is when I am not completely losing my mind to a panic attack.
I can’t do anything about my past, but I can try to live happy in the present. That is when the pot comes in. Now, I can’t pretend… These things still happen because weed is not a miracle cure it is a management medicine. These are things that still happen to me with weed:
- I still get scared & panic for no reason
- I can still cry for no reason
- I can still feel at time dejected and rejected.
What is not happening? :
- I am not self-harming
- I am not drinking unsupervised if at all. (PTSD & alcohol is not a good combo)
- I do not wake up feeling hopeless and incapable even in a scarce resource period
- I do not wonder if I will live past my 30’s. I now know I will.
Do you think medical marijuana can aide your healing? Check out my link to get on it here.