Remembering what I am in Treatment for

Written by Ashton Deroy:

Last use of medication, over 24 hours ago.

Hey Readers, Facebook Friends & Family. I have been using marijuana for PTSD treatments since May 2018. I think I may have been overdoing it since last weekend so I decided to take 24 hours off use. What happened when I took my break? here is what happened when I took a full 24 hours off of use:

  • Unrelieved anxiety & paranoia – I entered back into the world where everyone is my enemy. Much like I felt when I was at Seneca from 2016-2018.
  • Depression – My feeling of hopelessness returned in full force. At points last night there were times when I could not do anything.
  • Interval sleeping – My brain stayed on high alert and every little noise woke me up. That is okay, “Doctors highly recommend 3 hours of sleep at a time. Right?”

To Summarize other feelings at this time. I don’t want to put on my favorite tye dye shirt or my bandanna, no thoughts of painting my nails & embracing my dual spirit. I want to hide like I don’t deserve to be seen. I don’t even feel like using my positive affirmations. Is it worth it?

Message me below with what you think. Happy healing guys!

Sincerely

Ashton Deroy

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