Ashton Deroy Writes: We made brownies with our special family recipe. Which includes a store brand brownie mix with the vegetable oil quantities replaced with THC oil. This recipe is delicious to consume with THC oil. You should be prepared to lay down when you consume these.
Something else funny that happened to me. I was surfing around YouTube, this is after I decided to make it public in my online profile that I am a medical marijuana user. That was when I was targeted by this target market advertising. Check out this Oh Henry Ad.
Why I am okay with publicly writing about being a medical marijuana user? This is what my readers want to know about. How does medical marijuana help the challenges of PTSD & Autism? This is where my stories usually begin on this blog.
My rules for medical cannabis use:
You do not smoke & go to work
You do not smoke & drive
You should not smoke every-time you feel stomach sick. It creates a use dependence.
Reaching for medical marijuana is safer than reaching for Advil. Autism headaches are constant and triggered by everyday loud noises like a Subway going by.
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Hey guys, so yesterday my PTSD was confirmed in 10 fold. I had tachycardia in the midst of a hot 31-degree day here in Toronto. At 1400 I had an episode where I thought someone was trying to poison me & left work an anxious mess.
Here are some things to note about this experience:
The entire fit was in a medical institution where the findings on my illness could be recorded.
No one said to stop taking your medical marijuana for Indica sleep & Sativa anti-depressant. It just has to be had in teas for a bit.
I made the decision to stop smoking, vaping and drinking coffee for a little bit.
I just feel like when your heart has checked in to your anxiety. It is time to take a break from stuff that can stress the heart out.
How do I feel today?
My head hurts because from what I heard, not what I can remember I banged my head against a wall.
Anxiety has caused spasms which some people took to mean as me being violent. Not fun having to explain I am not…
I am tired, a little mortified by what my head can put me through in a bout of granting me 0 control.
I want to go back to work tomorrow. I miss the challenges. Healing is not the most fun thing in the world. The community is much more fun! 🙂
If you struggle with fits as well please try to get to a hospital when you have them. Mine did stuff to me I didn’t even really fully understand. Once you know you can heal.
Oh, Diana will be writing some of our shop content later this week. I am so excited to see her skill set on display!
Hey Readers, Facebook Friends & Family. I have been using marijuana for PTSD treatments since May 2018. I think I may have been overdoing it since last weekend so I decided to take 24 hours off use. What happened when I took my break? here is what happened when I took a full 24 hours off of use:
Unrelieved anxiety & paranoia – I entered back into the world where everyone is my enemy. Much like I felt when I was at Seneca from 2016-2018.
Depression – My feeling of hopelessness returned in full force. At points last night there were times when I could not do anything.
Interval sleeping – My brain stayed on high alert and every little noise woke me up. That is okay, “Doctors highly recommend 3 hours of sleep at a time. Right?”
To Summarize other feelings at this time. I don’t want to put on my favorite tye dye shirt or my bandanna, no thoughts of painting my nails & embracing my dual spirit. I want to hide like I don’t deserve to be seen. I don’t even feel like using my positive affirmations. Is it worth it?
Message me below with what you think. Happy healing guys!
Written by Ashton Deroy: In coherence with the law no non-medical users or underaged person were given access to personal medication supply. We also harmed 0 animals in the making of this video. As the vlogger is a vegetarian. Ashley helped with the filming & cooking while I was medicating, because sometimes intoxicated cooking causes fires.
“A condition of persistent mental and emotional stress occurring as a result of injury or severe psychological shock, typically involving disturbance of sleep and constant vivid recall of the experience, with dulled responses to others and to the outside world.” Google search
If you ask me what it is, however… I will tell you it is.
Consistently having nightmares that make sleep impossible.
Feeling like the world’s sole purpose with you is to torment you.
Losing the ability to believe in love because it only amounts to pain
Struggling to hold a job because you stress yourself out of them
Feeling crushed under the pressure of what you feel is your closely approaching doom.
On the telephone doing financial market research in the Baltimore territory. I got called a cockroach by someone on the other end of the phone 6/25. A cockroach, like something exposed to a filthy environment, multiple trauma’s but just won’t die! Even if you crush just a part of one of these pests, it can drag itself around still. However, a cockroach feels no pain!
Maybe I am dirty, maybe I am dragging around a partially crushed carcas. I do feel pain though & instead of letting it kill me. I just try to live in spite of it.