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Important message Cannabis is not legally distributed or consumed  by anyone under the age of 19 in Ontario, Canada. Under the changing regulations that govern Alcohol & tobacco. 

Ashton Deroy Writes: We made brownies with our special family recipe. Which includes a store brand brownie mix with the vegetable oil quantities replaced with THC oil. This recipe is delicious to consume with THC oil. You should be prepared to lay down when you consume these.

Something else funny that happened to me. I was surfing around YouTube, this is after I decided to make it public in my online profile that I am a medical marijuana user. That was when I was targeted by this target market advertising. Check out this Oh Henry Ad. 

Why I am okay with publicly writing about being a medical marijuana user? This is what my readers want to know about. How does medical marijuana help the challenges of PTSD & Autism? This is where my stories usually begin on this blog. 

My rules for medical cannabis use: 

  1. You do not smoke & go to work
  2. You do not smoke & drive
  3. You should not smoke every-time you feel stomach sick. It creates a use dependence.
  4. Reaching for medical marijuana is safer than reaching for Advil. Autism headaches are constant and triggered by everyday loud noises like a Subway going by.  

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My time on a TrainWreck! #420

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Written by Ashton Deroy: Hey everyone thank you for checking out my vlog with Diana Skye. This was mostly made to promote Bongs-R-Us.ca.

Strain of the day: Train Wreck

Some personal life stuff did creep in but we are okay sharing that since some of the drama took place on YouTube last year.

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Ashton Deroy writes: So I started today with a vape of something call Train Wreck. Then I went on a 6K run from North York to Markham. 

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Instagram: “When you scare your #Fiverr PR rep by running 6K to the meeting. 
Marketing meeting today on #WordPress , #Shopify & @vistaprint .”

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Remembering what I am in treatment for

Written by Ashton Deroy:

Last use of medication, over 24 hours ago.

Hey Readers, Facebook Friends & Family. I have been using marijuana for PTSD treatments since May 2018. I think I may have been overdoing it since last weekend so I decided to take 24 hours off use. What happened when I took my break? here is what happened when I took a full 24 hours off of use:

  • Unrelieved anxiety & paranoia – I entered back into the world where everyone is my enemy. Much like I felt when I was at Seneca from 2016-2018.
  • Depression – My feeling of hopelessness returned in full force. At points last night there were times when I could not do anything.
  • Interval sleeping – My brain stayed on high alert and every little noise woke me up. That is okay, “Doctors highly recommend 3 hours of sleep at a time. Right?”

To Summarize other feelings at this time. I don’t want to put on my favorite tye dye shirt or my bandanna, no thoughts of painting my nails & embracing my dual spirit. I want to hide like I don’t deserve to be seen. I don’t even feel like using my positive affirmations. Is it worth it?

Message me below with what you think. Happy healing guys!

Sincerely

Ashton Deroy

 

 

 

Remembering what I am in Treatment for

Written by Ashton Deroy:

Last use of medication, over 24 hours ago.

Hey Readers, Facebook Friends & Family. I have been using marijuana for PTSD treatments since May 2018. I think I may have been overdoing it since last weekend so I decided to take 24 hours off use. What happened when I took my break? here is what happened when I took a full 24 hours off of use:

  • Unrelieved anxiety & paranoia – I entered back into the world where everyone is my enemy. Much like I felt when I was at Seneca from 2016-2018.
  • Depression – My feeling of hopelessness returned in full force. At points last night there were times when I could not do anything.
  • Interval sleeping – My brain stayed on high alert and every little noise woke me up. That is okay, “Doctors highly recommend 3 hours of sleep at a time. Right?”

To Summarize other feelings at this time. I don’t want to put on my favorite tye dye shirt or my bandanna, no thoughts of painting my nails & embracing my dual spirit. I want to hide like I don’t deserve to be seen. I don’t even feel like using my positive affirmations. Is it worth it?

Message me below with what you think. Happy healing guys!

Sincerely

Ashton Deroy

What is PTSD?

Medical marijuana patient Asthon Deroy: 

Last use before writing: 6/27 0200, used treasure island indicia and Jean-Guy Sativa with melatonin. Through smoke & StarBucks medicated Mocha. 

Posted at: 6/27 0600

PTSD is Posttraumatic Stress Disorder. 

If you ask Google what that is you get: 

“A condition of persistent mental and emotional stress occurring as a result of injury or severe psychological shock, typically involving disturbance of sleep and constant vivid recall of the experience, with dulled responses to others and to the outside world.” Google search

If you ask me what it is, however… I will tell you it is. 

  • Consistently having nightmares that make sleep impossible. 
  • Feeling like the world’s sole purpose with you is to torment you. 
  • Losing the ability to believe in love because it only amounts to pain 
  • Struggling to hold a job because you stress yourself out of them
  • Feeling crushed under the pressure of what you feel is your closely approaching doom.

On the telephone doing financial market research in the Baltimore territory. I got called a cockroach by someone on the other end of the phone 6/25. A cockroach, like something exposed to a filthy environment, multiple trauma’s but just won’t die! Even if you crush just a part of one of these pests, it can drag itself around still. However, a cockroach feels no pain!

Maybe I am dirty, maybe I am dragging around a partially crushed carcas. I do feel pain though & instead of letting it kill me. I just try to live in spite of it. 

 

 

Getting better & what medicine can’t do.

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Ashton Deroy writes: 

Hey WordPress readers, Twitter Followers & close Facebook friends. 

If this is your first time on this blog. This is a space where we tell marijuana jokes & explore how marijuana treats PTSD. I like to say I am a centrist when it comes to marijuana as medicine. Thank Diana Skye in large part. I always have her to remind me it is not a miracle drug. In fact without cognitive rehabilitation studies are showing that it does nothing for PTSD. Marijuana is still a medicine that aids with my mental issue while making me open to conversations I need to be having with physicians, counselors & an awaiting psyche referral. I just got my medication from Canada Post, sold to me by Aphria for my PTSD. 

What triggered my PTSD? , I am a victim of multiple trauma. In fact 3 key traumas I think play a role. 1. I was sexually assaulted at 17 & 14 by a relative. 2. When I was 19 I nearly got trapped in a dumpster before being saved by a very close friend & my brother. 3. I was abused by my ex-boyfriend. The third one was the worst one because it was constant and I couldn’t will my way out of the relationship until 2015 and we were unhealthy from the beginning in 2013. 

This is an entry in my pot journal. Before I begin I want to say I am safe, in recovery & functioning. While some of it goes to the medicine, for example being able to do something other than ball my eyes out after work. I realize there is a lot my medicine cannot do for me. The following things are stuff I know the medicine cannot do for me: 

  1. The medicine cannot go to work for me. I need to wake up be sober & maybe have a cup of coffee in the morning in order to do that. 
  2. The medicine can not face loved ones & friends I’ve turned against in stages of high paranoia. I need to make my own amends in my own time in order to fix this problem.
  3. The medicine cannot tell a story through image & text. That is still me, my brain, my dreams & my executed vision.  
  4. The medicine isn’t the one surviving my condition. I am the one who turned to help for my PTSD around a time it could have killed me. 

I worry sometimes because I have momentary space-outs at work, I might overshare & I have alienated myself from prior social groups. However, recovery is a process and not one I have stuck to much until now. I want to talk about a study I am looking at. 

Is Psychological condition a victim of one’s nature or is it nurture? This is often a debate I have with my brother actually. In a lot of ways, I am very similar to our mom. Also, who has PTSD? While both of our’s are triggered by instances of trauma. Still, there are people traumatized who do not experience this disorder. So why us? Her’s was triggered by a car accident mine was triggered by bashing and an abusive ex. 

Speaking of medicine use. I need to follow physician orders & look into vaporizers or edibles. It goes without saying picking up a cheap bong or pipe is an easy option. Maybe not the smartest. If you have a recommendation please email me at Ashtonderoy@gmail.com