Ashton Deroy Writes: We made brownies with our special family recipe. Which includes a store brand brownie mix with the vegetable oil quantities replaced with THC oil. This recipe is delicious to consume with THC oil. You should be prepared to lay down when you consume these.
Something else funny that happened to me. I was surfing around YouTube, this is after I decided to make it public in my online profile that I am a medical marijuana user. That was when I was targeted by this target market advertising. Check out this Oh Henry Ad.
Why I am okay with publicly writing about being a medical marijuana user? This is what my readers want to know about. How does medical marijuana help the challenges of PTSD & Autism? This is where my stories usually begin on this blog.
My rules for medical cannabis use:
You do not smoke & go to work
You do not smoke & drive
You should not smoke every-time you feel stomach sick. It creates a use dependence.
Reaching for medical marijuana is safer than reaching for Advil. Autism headaches are constant and triggered by everyday loud noises like a Subway going by.
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Hey Readers, Facebook Friends & Family. I have been using marijuana for PTSD treatments since May 2018. I think I may have been overdoing it since last weekend so I decided to take 24 hours off use. What happened when I took my break? here is what happened when I took a full 24 hours off of use:
Unrelieved anxiety & paranoia – I entered back into the world where everyone is my enemy. Much like I felt when I was at Seneca from 2016-2018.
Depression – My feeling of hopelessness returned in full force. At points last night there were times when I could not do anything.
Interval sleeping – My brain stayed on high alert and every little noise woke me up. That is okay, “Doctors highly recommend 3 hours of sleep at a time. Right?”
To Summarize other feelings at this time. I don’t want to put on my favorite tye dye shirt or my bandanna, no thoughts of painting my nails & embracing my dual spirit. I want to hide like I don’t deserve to be seen. I don’t even feel like using my positive affirmations. Is it worth it?
Message me below with what you think. Happy healing guys!
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Ashton Deroy Writes: Hey guys, so there have definitely been some changes obviously. We started our own online shop! We are starting out as drop shippers & designers but we are hoping to actually own and photograph our products very soon.
We sold something in under an hour! So we know stuff is going to happen with this project. I mean it is literally lead by a guy who loves sales. The second on the project is my brother Matt Clarke .
I hope people will continue to support this blog now that we are operating as a business. We still hope to make magnificent art & connect with the alternative healing community.
Canada Day Wake & Bake
Happy Canada Day viewers. In this video, I just wanted to showcase my new (used) vape & some pets. This video is still brought to you by the fact, “Diana Prefers Non-GMO food because she is fancy.”
Ashton Deroy Writes: Due to just incredible feedback & my willingness to execute this project. I will be turning this space into my medical marijuana blog, where my goal long term is to have it featured in partnership with Swan Whispers ASMR.
If we are just meeting. I am Ashton Deroy, gay bashing survivor, a victim of the affliction of PTSD & medical cannabis user. When I was 19 I was a victim of an attack which had me lead my 3 other men into a dumpster where I was trapped. It was not long but it could have been the end of my life had it not been for some friends looking out for me.
“I don’t want to be like this.” What do I mean when I say that? Well, I don’t want to have fits, stress out or cry for no reason. I think I sound insane when I describe it to people. In fact, I know I sound insane. When you talk about survivors… Talk about the girl at my work who when I told her I had PTSD she mentioned she was a breast cancer survivor. That surviving takes bravery!
What about my aunt? Surviving the attacks of a terrorist & cancer as well. That is bravery. I just continue to be loud & expressive in a world that has sometimes rejected me like trash. That is when I am not completely losing my mind to a panic attack.
I can’t do anything about my past, but I can try to live happy in the present. That is when the pot comes in. Now, I can’t pretend… These things still happen because weed is not a miracle cure it is a management medicine. These are things that still happen to me with weed:
I still get scared & panic for no reason
I can still cry for no reason
I can still feel at time dejected and rejected.
What is not happening? :
I am not self-harming
I am not drinking unsupervised if at all. (PTSD & alcohol is not a good combo)
I do not wake up feeling hopeless and incapable even in a scarce resource period
I do not wonder if I will live past my 30’s. I now know I will.